Jessica
While my husband and I are well-matched in many areas, we are temperamentally like night and day. I am noticing this especially today, since we both don’t have to go to work until mid-morning. He woke up half an hour before me, as he does every day. Then, he immediately showered and put on his work clothes. I took a long bath, then spent as much of my morning as possible in my pajamas. If I could live in my bathrobe, I would, while my husband would prefer to wear a button down shirt on most occasions.
As I was whining about having to dress for work (as I am wont to do), my husband admonished me. “That’s why I get up and put my work clothes on immediately. That way, I spend my morning either working or working.” He meant “prepping for class” as the first working and “writing” as the second working. To him, they are both work. Truly, that’s what I admire about him. He is driven in ways that I am not. He can work from morning until night without break, while I feel like I need breaks. I need, more than anything, fun.
Currently, my work and school schedules require that I spend most weekends working and attending school or finishing homework on the off weekends. When I get to a weekend that is relatively unencumbered, I start itching for fun. I wish that I didn’t. I wish that I could be more even-keeled, that I could be content with doing some errands, relaxing a bit, and then going back to work on Monday. Alas, no. It’s Thursday morning and I am damn near humming with anxiety, trying to determine how much fun I can cram between Friday evening and Sunday evening.
The funny thing is that I have fun planned for the weekend. On Saturday, we have a Minnesota Rollergirls bout and tentative plans to see Alice in Wonderland in the morning. On Sunday, we have writer’s group in the afternoon and a tentative Oscar party with fancy snacks during the evening. That should be enough fun for one weekend. Not for me. I want fun on Friday night, although I don’t know what that fun could be, and I want to have it now.
I don’t know how I’ll make it through the rest of my week. I have my home to-do list and my work to-do list to propel me through the next few days. However, I may just need to start instigating my fun earlier. If I can figure out what kind of fun I want today.
