Archive for ‘Accountability’

February 6, 2011

My Week (1/30/2011-2/5/2011)

My Creative Acts

My week revolved around prepping for a one and a half hour lecture/discussion on my poetry and descriptive language in my friend Darci’s class and for advertising my reading on February 13. I feel like promoting Blameless Mouth has taken over my creative life. And here I thought that my work was done after it was published. I was wrong.

  • Writing lecture notes for my time in Darci’s class (Monday, Tuesday and Thursday)
  • Arranging a poetry reading with fellow local poet Elizabeth Burns (Wednesday)
  • Promoting the No Romance Poetry Reading on Facebook and my blog (Wednesday) – Have you RSVP’ed yet?
  • Lecturing in Darci’s class, which was one of the highlights of my week (Friday)
  • Taking pictures for Saturday Scenes at the Midtown Global Market

What’s Inspired Me This Week

On My Bookshelf

  • I’ve been avoiding The Gifts of Imperfection all week. I think I have to return it to the library and try again, when I am in a more change-receptive frame of mind.
  • I finished White Night and moved on to Small Favor. Thank God I only have one or two more of these books, because I suspect they are eating my brains.
January 30, 2011

My Week (1/23/2011 to 1/29/2011)

My Creative Acts

I haven’t done very good tracking this week, so this is all from memory. The beginning of the week seems so far away.

  • Edited a portion of The Many Lives of Inez Wick (Wednesday)
  • Took pictures on my new phone, using different settings in the Retro Camera application, while waiting for the bus. (Thursday)
  • Read writer’s group packets (Friday)
  • Attended my writer’s group (Saturday)

What’s Inspired Me This Week

On My Bookshelf

I’m reading two books currently: The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown and White Night by Jim Butcher.  I’m really enjoying the Brene Brown book, but it’s hitting a bit close to home, so I have to alternate it with something a bit more light and fluffy.

January 23, 2011

My Week (1/16/2011 to 1/22/2011)

My Creative Acts

  • Discovered the new “Edit with Picnik” feature on Picasa and played with photo editing (Monday)
  • Assembled a poem packet for my visit to Aaron’s Literature class (Monday)
  • Took a birthday self-portrait (or 8) and processed them on Picnik (so addictive) (Monday)
  • Wrote down notes for my poetry talk in Aaron’s class (Tuesday)
  • Played more with photo editing on Picnik (Tuesday)
  • Gave two talks about Blameless Mouth to Aaron’s Literature Classes (Thursday)

What’s Inspired Me This Week

  • Can I say Picnik is incredibly awesome? Even for the free version, there are some really nice photo editing and processing options and it is a bit more user friendly than Photoshop or Photoshop-like applications, at least for noobs like me.
  • I love the Intersections photo swap that Julochka is hosting on moments of perfect clarity. She double exposed a roll of film with Shokoofeh, so the pictures were shot in Copenhagen and Tehran, respectively. The photos are gorgeous!
  • Beth, who does a ton of jumping photos, has some really excellent sandy/beachy jumping photos here. I love that she keeps recreating these jumping shots with different people.
  • Deb Scott has some gorgeous small stones, which she matches with photography to make mini-postcards.

On My Bookshelf

This week, I’m working through Scary Stuff by Sharon Fiffer. I’m reading the series accidentally backwards, because I misread her author’s website. Oh well.

January 16, 2011

My Week (1/9/2011 to 1/15/2011)

My Creative Acts

This has been a rough week. I had so much to do at work that I haven’t really been focusing on my creative life. However, I still was able to do a few creative projects, between the madness, including:

  • Helping Aaron navigate the Lulu system, as his “publisher” (Tuesday and Wednesday)
  • Update my cover art for Blameless Mouth, since it didn’t fit their Global Distribution requirements (Friday). Special thanks to artist Susan Sieber for her revision – she is such a great person to work with!

My hope is that next week will be easier, work-wise, so that I can get back on track. I would like to resume my 750 words (which have really gone by the wayside), my small stones, and start writing a series of poems that have been burbling in the back of my mind.

What’s Inspired Me This Week

  • The invitation on A River of Stones to pick up the stones again, if you’ve felt like you’ve failed.
  • Caroline Hagood’s insightful discussion of the Kanye West video “Monster”
  • Beth’s pictures of a fourteen year-old dog frolicking in the sea and how age doesn’t hold her back. (My birthday is on Monday, so aging is on my mind.)
  • Amanda Palmer’s Map of Tasmania video. Although not particularly work safe, it’s hilarious and over-the-top.

On My Bookshelf

I returned to trash reading and picked up Proven Guilty by Jim Butcher, because I need more trips to faerie fortresses in my life. Maybe this is why I’m not writing so frequently?

January 9, 2011

My Week (1/2/2011 to 1/8/2011)

My Creative Acts

  • Took a photograph to go along with a small stone (Sunday)
  • Made a list of venues to query for a new reading, since the original venue I was going to use closed unexpectedly (Monday)
  • Edited my husband’s preface for The Many Lives of Inez Wick, his forthcoming book of short stories. (Thursday)
  • Ordered an ISBN number and started the LCCN process for The Many Lives of Inez Wick (Saturday)

What’s Inspired Me This Week

  • This small stone, by Deb of Stoney Moss
  • James Brush’s chapbook, a gnarled oak, available free online at his micropoetry blog of the same name
  • The small stone form, in general. I like the compactness of the moment, the pressure to distill it. I like the exactitude of the process.  I like that I can finish it in 5 to 10 minutes, typically, and refine it when I post it later.
  • The Ruins of Detroit, a photo essay by Yves Marchand & Romain Meffre, which is a heartbreaking look at the destroyed grandeur of Detroit’s buildings.
  • The return of Voix de Michele’s Pardon My French – go see it if you’re in the Twin Cities!
  • This poem by Caroline Hagood.
  • This comic by K. Beaton. (Ideal for grown-up Nancy Drew lovers, such as myself.)

On My Bookshelf

  • I finished Dead Beat early in the week and ordered the next book in the series from the library.
  • I tried starting Food Matters by Mark Bittman, but I’m just not feeling it. I’ve read too much in this vein of thought and I feel like I know the data and have implemented the solutions into my life.
January 2, 2011

My Week (12/26/2010 to 1/1/2011)

For 2011, I am going to track a few things every Sunday. They will be the creative acts I have accomplished, the things in the world that are inspiring me, and the books I’m reading. I’m hoping that this tracking will help me collect more information about my creative process in 2011.

My Creative Acts

I started late this week, since New Year’s Day was yesterday.

  • Yesterday, I purchased a brand new journal, with the hopes of creating a cover this week, and filling it with poetry throughout the year.
  • I have begun dreaming up ideas for the cover of the journal.
  • I also bought a cute little planner for six bucks, so I can track my poetry writing and creative act progress.
  • I wrote my first small stone of January.

What’s Inspired Me This Week

On My Bookshelf

Embarrassing but true: I am reading Dead Beat by Jim Butcher. I am addicted to this cheesy, noir-inspired series.

December 31, 2010

Hello, 2011!

I am a goal setter, I always have been. I think that’s why I enjoy this time of year so much. I love to look ahead and make ambitious goals about what I could possibly accomplish. The funny part is that I almost always accomplish something different than I set out to in a given year. Often times, what I do accomplish is so much better than what I originally laid out for myself.

This year, I am having a hard time settling on goals. That almost never happens to me. But here we are at December 31 and I have to make a decision. Since I know that my life will take a circuitous path this year, as it does every year, I am going to set “good enough” goals rather than perfect goals. I am letting go a little bit on this year.

Before I set my goals, I had to decide what my One Little Word for 2011 would be. In the past two years, I’ve used “essential” and “resource.” When thinking about it this year, I realized that I have yet to choose a verb. So I intentionally limited myself to verbs this year, because I think that I should have a year of doing. I waffled over a few words this year, (both hustle and connect were contenders) but eventually landed on one.

My One Little Word for 2011 is Create.  

c letter R E letter A letter T Block Lowercase Letter e

The definitions I am focusing on for create are highlighted below:

–verb (used with object)

1. to cause to come into being, as something unique that would not naturally evolve or that is not made by ordinary processes.
2. to evolve from one’s own thought or imagination, as a work of art or an invention.
5. to be the cause or occasion of; give rise to
6. to cause to happen; bring about; arrange, as by intention or design

–verb (used without object)
7. to do something creative or constructive.

I can’t be the only person using the word “Create” this year. In a sea of arty and writerly bloggers who participate in One Little Word, I will probably be one of a large handful of people using this word. And I’m okay with that. Because even though it seems obvious, I think that I need to focus on a few basics in the upcoming year. I think I need to focus on the fact that I am a writer who needs to write. I need to produce writing of substance. I need to create opportunities, for myself and for my now published book. I also need to give rise to new things in my life. (I think that may be my favorite of the definitions.) So, I am going to create this year.

How does this break down to my New Year’s Goals. Typically, I’ve been choosing three small goals each year. They help me to focus on what I think is truly important. I can remember three goals, even memorize them. This year, I am going to have three goals and a bonus goal, because I want to focus on specific achievements in my creative life and my personal life.

Goal #1: Create something every day.
It can be a piece of writing, a photograph, or a collage, my traditional means of expression. It can be a part of something: a metaphor, a couplet, a rough draft. Or it can be an opportunity or connection that I hadn’t created before. I will track my progress using the #onecreativeact hashtag I used last year.

Goal #2: Create connections between potential readers of Blameless Mouth and my book.
Ideally, this means for me readings and retail venues for my book, once the global distribution gets approved by Lulu. But I would also like to think out of the box on this one. How else can I create connections between readers and my book? I am looking forward to how this unfolds.

Goal #3: Create a draft of a book length manuscript.
I started and finished a chapbook manuscript last year, but I feel that it’s underdeveloped. Instead, I would like to flesh out this manuscript more, so that I can more clearly demonstrate the connections between the two subjects I was exploring in the work.

Bonus Goal: Add 5 new fruits or vegetables to my diet.
As I have mentioned here before, I am a recovering picky eater. I have made lots of strides in my eating habits, because I now choose healthier foods on a regular basis. Still, there are some foods that I am afraid of, like a three year old. I would like to give up those fears and try them again. At first, I thought I was going to designate which foods I would like to add. Instead, I am going to open myself to whatever foods I feel like trying. Hopefully, I will find 5 that I like, that I didn’t like before, by the end of next year.

So, those are my goals. I hope that you have fun setting your own goals for the year. Personally, I can’t wait to see how I surprise myself by what I end up accomplishing.

December 30, 2010

Goodbye 2010!

For the past few weeks, I’ve been reading and re-reading last year’s New Year’s Goal post. It doesn’t sound like me. At least, it doesn’t sound like the me that I’ve become this year.

At the end of last year, I was in a much different place in my life. I had all but given up on my writing. I thought that if I could just surrender and focus solely on my education career, on the job that pays my bills, that I would be happier. Of course, I would still write, but I would simply engage in the process of writing and ignore the product. When I read last year’s post, I don’t hear happiness. I hear defeat. It’s hard for me to read.

So what exactly happened? How did I get from that place to where I am now? A few things are responsible for this shift in my life:

1) Year of Resources – My One Little Word last year was “Resource”. I wanted to focus on how I spend my time, energy and money.

  • Time should be spent on my creative work.
  • Creative energy should be spent on my creative work.
  • Money should be spent on local, ethical, sustainable businesses and artists.

These three guidelines helped me to evaluate whether or not I was spending what I little I have wisely. It also led me to discover new ways to think of my writing career.

2) Supporting Artists – Due to my stated goal for managing my money resource, I went out of my way this year to support independent artists. In my own community, I went to zine shows and indie comics conventions. I attended to Fringe Festival plays. I bought items off of Etsy and books off of Lulu. I became a participant in the commerce of independent artists.

After a short while, I realized that these artists were not that much different from me. They work day jobs and they manage artistic lives. What’s more, they are ballsy enough to ask for money for their work And people like me pay them.

3) 5:00 AM & 750 Words – Around September, I realized that there was something still missing from my life. I still wasn’t creating. I couldn’t figure out how to fit my creative work into my day, because I came home from work so exhausted. I couldn’t fathom writing, because I could barely lift a finger. So, instead, I looked at the other end of my day and thought, what about here? I began getting up at 5:00 AM and writing 750 words every day using the excellent 750 Words site. After my words, I had time to do other creative work. I began revising Blameless Mouth for the last time and finally, I was ready to publish.

If you had told me at this time last year that I would have published my book in 2010, I would have thought you were crazy. I had surrendered that dream. Because I focused on my internal resources, because I found models in other independent artists, and because I surrendered to waking up earlier to achieve my goals, I have accomplished more than I ever thought I would. I’m hoping that 2011 turns out even better.

November 2, 2010

Ten Creative Things

“Luck is not a business model.” — Anthony Bourdain, Medium Raw

Over on the Facebook, a friend of mine posted a great meme: Ten Creative Things I Want To Do Before I Die.”  When I read through her very impressive list (cookbooks and video games abounded), I realized that I had been holding a list like this inside of me. Now that I’m on the verge of completing one of my main goals, I thought it would be smart to declare the rest of my intentions here.

  1. Publish Blameless Mouth. (Getting there!)
  2. Write a book about balancing creative pursuits with real life.
  3. Make money off my writing. I know it doesn’t sound creative, but it would mean that my creativity has value. This shouldn’t be underestimated.
  4. Blend collage and poetry to create poems as objects.
  5. Expand my “Favoring the Good Leg” manuscript to book length.
  6. Write a book of poetry that can stand as a clear, narrative story.
  7. Participate, as an author, in the Twin Cities Book Festival.
  8. Become good at video poems.
  9. Learn how to bind books on my own.
  10. Learn how to use a letterpress on my own.

Looks like I have my work cut out for me, at least for the next few years. Of course, I love having these goals to work towards.

What are your ten creative things?

October 15, 2010

On Habits and Flamingos

If you’ve read Julia Cameron’s The Artist’s Way, then you’re familiar with morning pages. If you’re not familiar with this practice, the basic idea is that writers should write three uncensored, unfiltered journal pages every morning as soon as they wake up. The idea is that you develop a creative practice, you unload whatever you’re thinking about, and you plant seeds for future “real” writing.  Throughout my life, I’ve tried morning pages off and on. In fact, I remember the first time I committed to them consistently was when I was living in the western Chicago suburbs. I was in my first professional job out of college and it was the first time I was scared that I would never be a real writer, because I never felt like I had time to write. I learned that this was wrong, because months later I was moving to Minnesota to start my MFA program at Hamline University. Despite my early successes with morning pages, I’ve never been able to practice them consistently over time.

As of today, I’ve written morning pages for 29 days in a row. I wouldn’t have been able to do this without the brilliant site, 750 Words.

I originally heard about 750 Words through Twitter, although like most things in social media, I cannot seem to pin down where I first heard about it. Basically, it’s a site that offers writers a free space to write your three morning pages each day. There’s a little word counter at the bottom of the page that helps you to see when you’ve gotten to 750 words. (This is the magic number, because on average a page of typed text is 250 words, according to the site founder.) Once you reach 750 words, it gives you a message that says you’ve achieved your goal. Your morning pages are archived by month, which you can download in a text file.

If this is all that the site did, it would be pretty cool. But it does more. You can send yourself a reminder email each day, so that you can click through to the site and write your words. It uses fancy word recognition software to tell you what you’re thinking and how you’re writing. (I will stress though that your words are totally private and only you can access them.) The site also awards your writing behavior with badges. If you write three days in a row, you earn a turkey. If you write five days in a row, you get a penguin. Ten days, and it’s a flamingo. Right now, I’m one day away from earning an albatross.  There are badges also for behavior, from your total accumulated words (reach 100,00 and you get a flock), to whether or not you get distracted for three minutes or more.

Lastly, you can participate in monthly challenges. You join the challenges only if you want, which commits you to writing for the whole month. You are allowed to devise your own rewards. For example, I’m participating in the October challenge. If I write for all 31 days in October, I will treat myself to lunch at an interesting restaurant. And I’ll be listed on the site’s Wall of Awesome, which is archived on the site.  If I miss one or more days, I will donate $10 to the 750 words site. I will also end up on the site’s Wall of Shame.

As you can see, there are multiple ways that the site encourages your consistency, between badges, challenges and daily prodding. Since I’m on a 29 day streak, I am terrified of breaking it, which perpetuates my streak. Since I’m participating in a monthly challenge, I’m motivated by my potential rewards (and dumb pride). All of this adds up to daily writing.

There are benefits of this site beyond consistency. Even though I’m writing nonsense most days (my 750 words include to do lists and half formed thoughts) I am unloading there. It’s a healthy place for me to crab about work or other nagging things on my mind. I don’t always have these private spaces in my life, so I appreciate that space, much more than if I were crabbing to my husband or friends.  I also have a space to work on creative projects and think through ideas for poems privately.

But most importantly, I get to see myself as someone who is engaged in her creative practice in a meaningful and consistent way. I get to be a finisher, an achiever, someone who writes 23,188 words in 29 days. And that kind of feeling is powerful.

(Full disclosure: I wrote this blog post as part of my 750 words this morning. It’s not cheating, it’s multitasking.)

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