Archive for ‘Inspiration’

April 6, 2010

NaPoWriMo #6: Our Marriage

Photo credits, clockwise  from top left: Old Man from The Sea by Ex-In Transit, Detail of a House by S I G U R, Ava by Emery Co Photos, Untitled by Jenasa, and Scarf bobbles – detail by poppalina

Our Marriage

I’ve grown up with your body
beside me. I am used
to your wrinkles and weight.

We wait together through work days,
through flu seasons when we cradle
each other in feverish dreams.

We pull each other out at the seams.
We unravel the other’s wool. We
arrive each day undone.

I carry inside me the hum
of your song, sing it to myself.
I count beats until I glimpse you again.

We bear the stain of our days
together. The dye sinks in our skin
and blooms in every pore.

And yet, we want more. We measure
our minutes together, long for the hush
of our nights. I would have it no other way.

***

6 poems down, 24 to go.

(4 on prompt, 2 off prompt)

Oh, the tricks I play on myself in order to get writing poems. Today, I took a very circuitous route to this poem.

First, I started with Rhiannon’s prompt from Read Write Poem.  She suggested that we assemble a group of pictures, write words or phrases from our impressions of these photos, and find the poem in those words.

I didn’t want to use my own pictures, because I might be too literally connected to them. I knew I wanted to use Flickr to find some Creative Commons licensed photos to use. But how to select them? Well, I used a nifty random word generator to pick some interesting search words. My words were: Firstborn, Outworn, Reaffirm, Bobbled and Fluidly.

Then, I plugged those terms into Flickr’s advanced search terms to find photos or illustrations that used those words anywhere in the post and were licensed via Creative Commons.

Once I found the beautiful pictures above, I used my Picasa to make them into a collage. Then, I put the collage on full screen on my laptop and began writing down words that occurred to me as I glanced at it.  My words included: stain, crackle, glow, afield, cradle, wrinkle, distance, undone, hush, wool, weight, wait, glimpse, and hum.

From those words, I realized I had words that were appropriate to a love poem, so I wrote the poem above. As I was writing, I tried to create stanzas with individual images and link the stanzas through sound, rather than narrative or extended image. And then, after all that, I had a poem. Whew.

Even though this seems like a lot of work, this process captures almost everything I love about writing on the internet. I used a prompt from an online community of writers, I referenced other artist’s work, and I pushed myself to a poem that I may not have ever written in a style that I rarely use. Hooray for technology.

March 25, 2010

April is Coming…

…which means spring, of course. It also means that NaPoWriMo (National Poetry Writing Month) is coming. Since I’m officially done with classes as of Saturday (hallelujah!), I’m joining in with the prompt fun at Read Write Poem.  Let the poeming begin…it six days or so!

March 20, 2010

In This Moment

In this moment, I am as I often am – sitting in front of a screen. I am hoping to find something just beyond my reach, in the thousands of pixels and words I consume every day. Here is what I can now see: I am missing everything around me.

***

This post is inspired by a prompt that Liz at be present, be here suggested yesterday. I took this picture using my web cam and then fiddled around with the filters until I created this image. I really like it, because I can see the little rectangles of the screen reflected in my glasses. as well as all the details of my living room, behind me.

If you would like to play along, all you have to do is shoot a picture of yourself and then finish the following sentence: “In this moment, I am…” Then, visit Liz’s blog to share your moment.

February 9, 2010

Watching Paint Dry

Working with paint and glue cultivates a kind of patience I don’t yet possess.  In the inspiration journal I started last week, I’ve been working with different types of paint, mostly water-color and acrylic, and gluing paper in layers.  The hardest part for me has been waiting for the different elements to dry.

When I write, I don’t need this kind of patience. I scribble (or type) words down on the page and I work them until the poem (or piece) is finished. I don’t have to wait for my words to dry on the page or for the layers of meaning to adhere to each other. They already are doing those things, with little to no waiting.

As I think about this process, it reminds me of when I took an introductory photography class in college. My favorite part (of course) was taking the pictures. I could snap rolls and rolls of film and I was happy in that process. What I dreaded was the dark room. Some photographers really enjoy the chemical fixing process, watching the images bloom on the paper.  Me, I hated all the waiting I had to do. I had to unravel the film perfectly, something I could never do, wait for the chemicals to fix the negatives. Then I had to look through all the negatives, find a few good and unblemished frames, burn the images on the paper and then develop the paper.  Ugh.  I couldn’t do all of those steps quickly enough.  Of course, now I have a digital camera and I have instantaneous results and virtually unlimited frames.

I wonder what this instant gratification does for my creative process. The benefit of working with paint and glue is that I am forced to wait while the materials do their work.  This morning, I am painting the background of an art journal page and I have to wait for it to dry. As it dries, I’m doing other things, but thinking about the next few layers I want to add. I ponder the various techniques – do I want to use inks or stamps? Do I want to paraphrase the Emily Dickinson line or not? Where would I put these words? When I write poems, I only think about these things after the draft is finished and I am hurtling towards revision.

I also have to forgive the materials a bit. The problem with my art journal now is that the pages bleed through to each other.  I envision the page I’m working on this morning in a certain way, but then the darn watercolors from the previous page are stubborn. They like to show themselves, even under layers of paint. This morning, I had to surrender and allow those stains to become part of the page.

I don’t know how all of this will affect my poetry or my writing process. I know back when I was taking photography class, my poetry shifted and became more image based.  Will working with paint and glue urge me to layer more in language? Will I learn to forgive (and even encourage) the constraints of the words I use? Even though these are all separate mediums, I know that they must come together, somewhere.

November 16, 2009

Fall’s Simple Things

The Simple Things prompt is back for the fall, hosted by Christina at Soul Aperture. I love this prompt because it encourages me to slow down, pay attention, and cultivate a little gratitude for my life.  To play along, visit this prompt and post a list of simple things that you are enjoying right now. 

My simple things include:

  • The abundance and variety of squash we’ve been enjoying this fall.
  • Working half days and quarter days
  • Re-watching one of my favorite TV shows and calling it “research for my final project”
  • Baking cranberry and chocolate chip cookies for a dinner gathering
  • Eating some of the raw cookie dough, throwing caution to the wind
  • The way my husband makes me laugh
  • Anticipating Thanksgiving, in all of its time-off, family visits, and big meal wonderfulness
  • Colder weather, which causes my kitties to snuggle more
  • Coming off a weekend where I got to spend time with my husband, study, and relax by myself… it’s been rare to get all three in lately
  • Winding down my first class in my grad program
  • Seeing the syllabus for the next class – I’m such a nerd!
  • Golden fall light in the mornings (when it’s sunny)
  • Sleeping in, even if it means I still get up earlier than I wanted

Those are the simple things that are filling my life right now.  How about you?

Don’t forget to check out the other bloggers who are participating in the prompt today!

September 29, 2009

What’s Feeding Me Today

After a few hectic weeks at work, I feel like listing some of the things that are feeding me lately.

  1. The first brisk morning of the fall.
  2. The sun breaking across the horizon while I exercised this morning.
  3. The ridiculous bravery and teamwork exemplified by the men in Endurance: Shackleton’s Incredible Voyage, which I’m reading for school. 
  4. The bounty of fall apples, which we’ve been getting from the Farmer’s Market for the past few weeks. This week, we’re enjoying Jonathans. I haven’t sprung for Honeycrisps yet.
  5. The giddy anticipation I feel as I look forward to this weekend, when I get to see a whole slew of friends that I haven’t seen in months…or sometimes years.
  6. The prospect of making Butternut Squash Soup by myself for the first time tonight. I’m using soy milk instead of half and half, since my husband’s lactose intolerant.
  7. Finally understanding why everyone likes The White Stripes and Peaches, 10 years too late.
  8. The feeling of a new project for my writing, tingling just on the edges of everything else.

This is what’s feeding me today. What’s feeding you?

July 8, 2009

Facebook Status Updates I Didn’t Post Today

Jessica Fox-Wilson:

  • wants a do-over.
  • doesn’t want to tell her story again.
  • feels tender.
  • is collecting bruises and callouses, putting them on display.
  • sees the world again in slants and slopes, distances and steps to climb.
  • does the monster mash.
  • cannot fold, bend, spindle, or mutilate.
  • hates that everything takes longer and is harder than usual.
  • loves her nest of hair, wants an animal to roost inside.
  • wishes that she were a bird with brilliant feathers.
  • feels victorious for small reasons.
  • listened to an old woman threaten to break a young man’s knuckle. Did nothing.
  • loves looking at people’s tattoos, peeking out from underneath their work clothes.
  • is learning to bend and not break.

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This morning, when I woke up, I was in a snit. A sore, tired, leg-braced snit. While getting ready for work, all I could think of were the many grumpy, self-pitying status updates that I wanted to post on Facebook.  I wanted to whine. So, instead, I wrote before leaving for work:

“Jessica Fox-Wilson can only think of grumpy status updates this morning, so thinks better of it.”

But as I continued to walk through my day, the FB status updates kept swimming in my head. They wouldn’t leave me only. In this scenario, the only thing to do is to collect them, so I wrote them down periodically. The nice thing about this practice is that they morphed from grumpy/whiny/self-pitying into something resembling poetry.  From an artistic standpoint, I don’t know if I would call this a full fledged poem, but maybe a kernel (or kernels) of poems.  From a personal standpoint, it sure helped me get through the day without crying or flipping out, which feels like a win to me. 

And of course, my new status update says:

“Jessica Fox-Wilson feels better, now that she’s in pajamas.”

Which happens to be very true.

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